anger management

*takes a deep breath, and watches the clouds move. slowly.*

let me tell you a story. my story.

jim is a very normal kid. he grows up in a very good family. his dad thought him all the basic things that moulds him into, ahem maybe debatable, but a proper man he is now.

when he was young, like any other rascals, he tells his daddy that sis broke the expensive vase when he knew who did it. he threw bottles at that friend who teased daddy and broke windows. he cried in the car and refused to come out because mommy didnt buy that white mice he wanted. in all the cases, he was angry, and that anger, resolved in all those desperate actions.

yeah, a really angry kid. a really imperfect, angry and nasty kid.

as he grows, he goes to places he never thought he will go and he sees many different angry individuals. hes been in terrible quarrels because he was angry, and he still remembers until this very day. some were unnecessary at all, some were really stupid, but almost all of them, they were pretty pointless.

today, sitting in this very cubicle, he knows that he is a pretty calm guy. pretty calm in the sense, he sits down and thinks before he gets any angrier. jim knows the consequences of being angry; unintended speeches and actions, and very very hurtful thoughts that most of the times, are voiced. hurtful voices that at the end of the day, he deeply regrets but is helpless.

jim is not saying this because he thinks that he is perfect in anger management.he just wants to share. he doesnt want the world to be any angrier, he doesnt want you to be angry, he doesnt want anyone to be angry at all.

back in university when he is angry, he plays loads of badminton. so much, he doesnt feel his legs anymore. and that somehow calms him down. at one point, he started midnight joggings because he was just simply thinking too much.

back in kangaroo town, he sleeps when he is angry. he slept so much, the next day, he just started smiling to himself and thanked God that he didnt felt angry over those small matters.

in labuan, he is constantly around people, workmates, bosses and what not. almost all the time, he is constantly aggravated by things that just doesnt go his way, by things that he has no control over at all, by the fact that being an intern means that you belong to the bottom of the food chain. most of the time, when he is angry, he sits in an isolated place, takes a deep breath and watches the cloud moves.

jim has plenty more to learn about being angry. so much more. but at this very point, he wants to share that being angry, just makes things really bad. i bet everyone knows that consciously.

:)

to those who are angry right now, i truly hope you are less angry after reading this. to those who are feeling happy, im happy for you, but just in case if you feel angry one day, pour water into that small fire before it burns the whole house alright?

cheers.